2020 Robidoux Quick n Dirty Race Report

If you’re going to have a 2020 race season, why not cram gravel and cyclocross all together, amIright?

Originally the 2020 Robidoux Quick n Dirty was scheduled for June, but alas, like many events, they decided to move the date (vs. cancel, which was appreciated, until cyclocross was confirmed to be happening, which leads to “OMG I gotta race two opposite disciplines in the same weekend!”). I’ve known about this race for a few years now, but this was the year I’d make the 90 minute journey to Gering, NE to race it. Why I never knew Gering was so close, I’ll never know! I chose the 65 mile (aka 67 mile) distance for this year, as I slowly work up my ability to race longer distances and times.

After racing CycloX Valmont in Boulder on Saturday morning, I hightailed it back home for lunch, a shower, and a quick cuddle session with my kitty cat before heading to Nebraska. This was not ideal, and I was exhausted just thinking about another 90 minute drive after 3 hours total in the car going back and forth to Boulder. It’s not like the 2020 race season snuck up on me, but it still felt like that as I tried to remember what I all needed to bring.

Strangely enough, I’ve never ridden a bike in Nebraska, though I live so close!

I awoke Sunday morning to some pretty terrible wind that had awoken me several times during the night. If there’s one thing I don’t do, it’s pay money to race in wind in a state that isn’t Wyoming. The smell of smoke was in the air from the rapidly exploding fire near Laramie, and I scrunched up my face even more. I just didn’t wanna. But alas, I kitted up, packed up my tent, and headed out to McDonald’s for some breakfast.

As I’m sitting in my car enjoying my latte and trying to wake up, I realized my gravel bike looked really funny… dammit, my seat bag was missing! I totally forgot I had taken it off and put it on my commuter bike when I did a longer ride with it a few weeks earlier. I tried not to panic at the idea of racing 67 miles without a tube. I always have a pump in my camelbak which was helpful, and I had a CO2 (with no inflater head). I pulled my giant multi-tool out of my race bag and put it on my “whiskey barrel” bag on my bike. Well, at least I had some stuff? I am tubeless, but this is goathead country. Ugh. Not ideal. Totally not ready to race bikes this year!

After a quick rider’s meeting, we lined up for the started. Technically there was about a 50 minute window for each race distance to start, but it seemed like most wanted to roll out at 8am, especially for those wanting to ride in a pack to hide from the wind. The start was first, and I stuck with the lead group of men for about a mile or two before dropping off as I felt the day before’s cyclocross effort. This put me solo for about 25 minutes until a group of four caught me.

It was good to ride with Steve, First City Dudes, and “Omaha” for awhile, as we cruised with a slight tailwind. Shortly before Aid 1, First City Dudes both flatted, and the rest of our group splintered off as we hit the first sustained climb of the day. After a fast downhill, it was time to turn into the 20mph sustained headwind out of the west, which was painful. Nothing like pushing 10mph into the wind, on a downhill. These miles were probably the most demoralizing, but I guess the perk is everyone was going slow (except for one guy that flew past me on aero bars like there was no wind).

After the headwind stretch from hell, it was time to mash down the highway for a few miles, with a climb. More demoralizing slow speeds down the pavement, but I felt the climb wasn’t bad. Once I hit Aid 2 (I never did stop at an aid station), I got a second wind, and also lots of recovery thanks to some fast sections. Steve, Omaha, and my friend’s son, Bryce, caught back up to me and we formed another group for several miles, until they all dropped me once we turned into the headwind again.

More mashing and trying to stay motivated and well fed as I headed up Carter Canyon towards Robidoux Pass. I had heard about the “super steep climb,” but I was relieved to see it was actually quite short. Whew, to the top. Now it was time to enjoy about 14 miles of flying so fast with an awesome tailwind – so fast I’d have to break for cattle guards as I didn’t want to die. I probably could’ve pushed harder, but it was nice to just spin lightly and enjoy going faster than 9mph for once.

One more stretch of northbound road into the crosswind, and then it was time to fly into the finish.

4:42:10, 67 miles,1st place for women (and about 15th overall). Whew!

I crossed the line, found some shade, and got my aching feet out of my shoes as quick as possible. Grabbed a beer out of trough, admired Ashton Lambie’s quads and Lauf, and found some friends.

One of the coolest trophies I’ve won!

Overall, wind aside (which is an uncontrollable factor), this was a great course and race! The roads were in great shape, despite the warnings about conditions – barely any washboard and not loose at all. It was definitely necessary to either have navigation on a GPS, or a cue sheet as the course was barely marked, but I think this is pretty common for gravel races due to the large sizes of the courses. I had no issues with using my Garmin and the TCX file. And honestly, the wind was manageable. I’ve ridden in worse, at least mentally.

Nutrition wise, I played with a different strategy. Usually I try to feed with a SIS gel every hour, but this day I did every ten miles starting about 18 miles in. I used my Camelbak Chase Vest with a 2L bladder of water with 300 calories of lemon Tailwind mixed in (which was about the one hour mark). I consumed 6 SIS gels, a combo of regular, electrolyte, and caffeinated ones. This seemed to work out well, but I think I might’ve needed more frequent gels to keep the energy levels up. Robidoux also served as a my shake down for The Dead Swede, which is coming up in two weeks, and that course has more climbing (and more frequent as it’s filled with rollers), so I’ll keep feeding strategies in mind.

Race Report

Bear Bait 8… finally racing in 2020!

The trails on Casper Mountain are some of my all time favorite! Seriously, hidden gem for sure! Tight trees, rocks, roots, twisty, sometimes reminds me of Novo Mesto World Cup courses with Kulhavy hiding in the trees (and gnomes… happens around lap 6 when I start losing my mind)… love them all! Funny race moment, some guy yelled out, “There’s no flow!” and I responded, “Welcome to real mountain biking, not that groomed flow crap.” That tells you my opinion on the trail building methods around my parts….  and I’m confused, as I think these trails ride really well, but then again, I really have no idea what “flow” means and why everyone is obsessed with it in these parts.

What, a bike race in 2020?!  Say it isn’t so?!

Starting a “race season” at the end of June is something unheard of for me, as I’m usually racing March-December, if not all year around thanks to random fat bike races.  With the COVID-19 pandemic, it seemed like 2020 would be the year that would mock me with the best fitness of my life with no chance to use it outside of Strava QOMs.

Thankfully, Bear Bait 8 was given the go ahead up in Casper for June 27th.  Though field sizes were down, I was thankful for the opportunity to go ahead in race in a pretty microbiologically safe way, COVID-19 screening waiver and all.

I camped right on the race course the night before, sleeping in Fozzy. Perfect!  I’m not a fan of Casper as a town, but Casper Mountain can’t be beat!

This is my third year of entering the 8 Hour Solo category, but sadly no other women registered for this year so I really, in theory, didn’t have to try hard to win.  But that thought is nonsense, so I decided to see how many of the men in the solo category I could beat and to actually earn my win, and get the most out of my entry fee.

The trails on Casper Mountain remain fantastic, and I settled into the course which was about a mile longer than 2019’s.  8 hours is a long time to ride a bike, so I reminded myself to pace at the beginning, letting the duo and team racers fight it out for the fastest lap award, as I tried to calm my asthmatic lungs in the dust.  I turned a 49 minute first lap, which is about four minutes faster than my fastest 2019 lap, which puzzled me… it must’ve been a faster course, or maybe I was faster?  (Or maybe both?)

Things went well for about the first three laps, and then the struggle bus arrived at the station.  It was a hot one this year, with no typical cool temperatures and/or rain.  Dry, hot, dusty.  Everything ached.  I started to realize everything I did wrong like a newbie (honestly, I really was out of practice on racing and preparing to race my bike this year).  I wore carbon soled shoes… my feet can’t stand endurance mountain bike racing in carbon shoes (I usually wear decently cheap composite soled shoes for long MTB races).  I realized this mistake on my second lap.  I stupidly had my Brains on my Specialized Epic set pretty firm, and when I adjusted my front fork, I actually made it firmer, which killed my arms and hands on the rooty course.  The heat made the flavor of my Tailwind mix very unpalatable.  Ugh.

My little pit area, complete with the best camping chair everrrrrrrr.

I stopped for a break after four laps, sitting down to enjoy an Uncrustable and a Red Bull, and this revitalized me.  I felt spunky for my fifth lap, even after I had a wreck that was comical and really didn’t make sense (I punched a tree stump which flung me off the bike superman style, and I bounced.  Literally bounced!).  Sixth lap it all went downhill again, and I ended up sitting for a few minutes with my shoes off, massaging my combination numb and painful feet.   I thought about quitting since I really didn’t need to keep going to “win.”

I took another break after my sixth lap, and decided to ditch the Camelback of Tailwind that I wasn’t drinking, and opted just to carry some SIS gels and a bottle of plain water.  I drank a second Red Bull (this stuff is magic juice for racing, I swear!  I learned Kate Courtney’s secret to success I think!).  I took off, feeling revitalized once again, and a lot lighter without the Camelback on my back.

I can through at 60.9 miles, and 7 hours 44 minutes after my eighth lap and called it good.  Because at Bear Bait 8 you can complete your final lap before or after eight hours, I could’ve kept going, but called it good due to the pain in my feet (if I didn’t have that pain, I would’ve entertained a ninth lap).  This effort was good enough for the win in my field of one (ha ha), and also 5th in the men’s category, finishing ahead of two of the guys.

I am salty and…. not as tired as previous years racing this event, despite the highest mileage so far.  Previous years I’d always have a good cry as my back muscles seized up at the finish, but my back was not protesting when I finished this round (however, it did after the 3 hour drive home)

Whew, third Bear Bait 8 solo done and dusted, and all the random quirks of racing worked out!  And unlike most races, I finished with the thought of “I’ll be back in 2021 for another solo!”  Eventually I’ll learn to do a 4 Hour Duo, but until then….

Lessons learned:

  • Pay attention to what shoes I grab.  I haven’t worn my carbon MTB shoes all season, so why I grabbed them out of my car versus my composite pair was beyond me.
  • Tailwind was mixed too strong for my taste buds this go around.  This year I have been playing around with using SIS gels along with Tailwind for a better nutrition plan for gravel racing, so I think I should’ve mixed my Tailwind at about half strength so it would’ve remained more palatable (I mixed 700 calories in two liters, I think 300-400 would’ve lightened up the sugary flavor).
  • Don’t ever, ever set the front Brain to nearly firm.  Yeesh, Heidi.  There’s even a sticker saying which way to turn it!  I can’t believe I raced my bike for years with it set up like that, how awful!
  • Starting my race season at the end of June is rough.

Lessons aside, still not bad for what is quite possibly my only mountain bike race for 2020 (but hopefully not the only race).


Oh the year it could’ve been…

One of my first rides of 2020 with the Square1 Cycling crew

Well 2020 has been interesting, huh?

I came into the new year motivated to get back to where I was a couple of years ago.  I started piling on the miles, and riding long rides I never thought I could survive.  Back to back 65 mile days, riding with fast groups, doing stilly stuff like riding my heavy gravel bike up Rist Canyon.  By mid-March I was nearing 1000 miles ridden.  2020 race season was going to be my b*tch!

Then, well, a pandemic of a novel virus happened.

Like probably every American out there, I’ve watched as my life upended in the last few weeks.  Races cancelled, permits pulled, group rides called off.  As people battled for toilet paper, work situations became uncertain, and travel basically banned, athletes have had the struggle of what to do now.

It’s been hard, I won’t lie!  I know (as I’ve read it on social media), a good chunk of society is like “get over it, it’s just a stupid bike race.”  I think that’s trivializing the situation.  First off, nobody can tell someone else how to feel, how to grieve, how to feel loss.  Yes, are people dying, losing their jobs, etc?  Hell yeah.  But that doesn’t mean a cyclist can’t feel sad, depressed, angry, whatever about their situation.  I use cycling to even out my mental health and deal with day to day stress.  Cycling is how I connect with others, socialize, and just feel normal.  That’s all been threatened.  While the outdoors is not cancelled (yet), most group rides are.  I feel isolated from my friends, especially ones I’ve finally reconnecting after years of blowing off riding a bike, and that’s hard.  I do not spend forty hours a week with people who are cyclists, let alone athletes, so I have been living for the weekends this year.  I’m also angry at myself for blowing off 2018 and 2019, and not riding as much and in a way feel like this is some weird karmic payback for largely turning my back on cycling the last few years (yes, I know irrational.  Shush).

So what’s my plan?  I’m forging ahead, sticking with my training plan and milking every day I can ride outdoors to the fullest.  My yoga studio moved to a live stream mode.  Kate Courtney is posting up fantastic videos of her strength routines (she wants to kill me I think, or so my hamstrings tell me).  I reactivated Zwift when I want something more than the blue boxes of TrainerRoad and weather/daylight is not cooperating.  I’m watching the food consumption.  I’m plotting new routes I can ride from my house that I have never explored.

My goal “A” race for the year falls on June 6th, which is tricky.  I will be absolutely, devastatingly heartbroken if it gets cancelled, but I also know eventually racing has to be allowed again.  It’s easy to just throw the hands up and want to give up, but as I look at the crazy things I have managed to accomplish so far in 2020, I don’t want to give up the fitness I have regained.

For now… let’s remember some of the fun times of 2020.

I was in Iceland (solo!) for the dawning of 2020. Here I am ice climbing on Sólheimajökull on January 2nd.

I sold my race car in January. I owned my Spec V for just shy of fifteen years. I was on my way to a gravel ride in Fort Collins when I ran into my old car!

Always the maid of honor, never the bride in Colorado Cross Cup for single speed! Fourth year of 2nd place. But I win in bringing the shenanigans.

The Colorado Cross Cup trophy collection

The one time I attempted to race a bike in 2020, and it was cancelled. Old Man Winter had a little too much winter going on. The 50km people were not allowed to start. I was sad, as I was feeling strong and ready to fight to win the thing, and not to mention crappy conditions are my thing! But I did get to hang out with some of my favorite people, so not all was lost.

I climbed Rist Canyon for the first time in three years. It was still as awful I as remembered.

Weekend gravel group rides became my jam, and suddenly riding 50-65+ miles on gravel didn’t seem like a hard task at all!

As the days of being able to spend time with friends dwindled, I soaked up the moments with my awesome gravel group

Adventuring on my final weekend of being able to travel to Colorado for awhile to ride.

Race Report

Cross Was Coming, Then It Was Here, and Now It’s Gone (Almost)

2019 marked something new for me:  the first season I’d attempt to actually legit train for cyclocross.  Whaaaaaa, training you say?  I know, bizarre.  So at the end of July, after finishing up my silliness of Mountain Bike Nationals and the Laramie Range Epic in the same weekend, I began my cyclocross training plan.  My motivation was a string of three years finishing 2nd in the Colorado Cross Cup in the singlespeed category.  So there I was in my living room, doing some godawful foundational strength routine, grunting through gritted teeth “Girls are going down this season!” (in the most loving sense… I legit love the women I race against!).  And I ran… hills… multiple times.  Including 20 times in a row in near 100 degree heat in the Red Desert.  I did intervals for the first time ever outside on my road bike.  People were going down.

Season opener for me… Modern Market Cross and bunny hopping the miniature patriarchy (Photo by Brent Murphy)

My season opener was Modern Market Cross way back in mid-September.  I took the hole shot, and held it for about half a lap – until a silly extended climbing portion that just sucked.  I’d hold on for 3rd place.  I think the field was 7 or 8, so not a shabby start to my season, considering historically I don’t catch my groove until November in cross.

Blue Sky Velo Cup (Photo by Shawn Curry)

Blue Sky Velo Cup saw only two of us line up to race, so I finished 2nd.  LOL.

CycloX Valmont (Photo by Brent Murphy)

CycloX Valmont… oh Valmont.  For some reason I just never race well here.  Without Limits changed up the course A LOT, making it very “turny” (aka more technical), which was a nice surprise.  This was probably the biggest singlespeed field of the year.  Naturally, I took the holeshot (oh if cross races were just 100m long), and held it up the climb until Errin and Sarah snuck around me.  I strangely found myself in 3rd, so I went like hell to maintain that.  It all seemed well, until the last half of the last lap, where I washed out on a gravel corner.  I hit the ground hard and immediately bounced back up to spectacular applause, briefly reaching behind to make sure my butt wasn’t exposed, and took off to hold onto my 3rd place position… and I did!  HOLY CRAP I got a Valmont podium with a full field of 10!  I also earned a massive new scar across my left lower leg.

Stem CiderX (Photo by Shawn Curry)

Cross was shaping up to be a hot and dry affair this year in Colorado.  Stem CiderX was another brand new race, and had a ridiculous course with a ton of climbing.  I was the only singlespeed woman brave enough to apparently take it on, so I got to take it “easy,” take some hand ups, and still win.  Ha, we all need one of these races every once in awhile!

Primalpalooza (Photo by Brent Murphy)

Primalpalooza is one of my least favorite courses on the BRAC calendar, and this year it was coupled with crazy wind.  Held it together for a 2nd place.  Meh, I could do without racing this course ever again.

Needless to say, burning out was on my mind. Cross season began a weird downhill tumble… I suffered some rather bizarre mechanicals on my singlespeed bike and tire issues on my geared bike.  Then in mid-October, right after the US Open and on the night of my birthday, the familiar sign of a scratchy throat started and I was knocked out sick for one full race weekend, and about 10 days in general with a respiratory virus.  And with that went my motivation.  I knew it would be another year of a 2nd place finish in the Colorado Cross Cup since before then, and now it was cemented.  Then after Cross of the North I contracted norovirus and spent a week making friends with any toilet I found, all the while traveling to Dallas for work, and not really eating any food for six days straight.  By mid-November I was done, mentally and physically.

CycloX Interlocken (Photo by Brent Murphy)

CycloX Interlocken is one of my favorite races, and this year I took the holeshot and stayed out front for a long time, putting as much hurt into Sarah as I could before she got around me.  After about one lap in, my chain started clunking and catching a lot, which was making me nervous, so I backed off the power a lot (not easy to do on a grass course like Interlocken).  This allowed Sarah to ride away from me.  The clunking intensified, so I held onto 2nd as best as I could.  After I finished, I was told that I was missing two chainring bolts, which was noticed on my bike before I even raced.  Well that explains the clunking and catching and weird ness!  I began the scramble to locate new bolts as I was racing the next day.  What a bizarre to say the least… just happy the other 3 very loose bolts held.  Sigh… what could have been.  If there was a race I could’ve beaten Sarah at this year, I felt like this was the one 😦

I oddly enough do not have a photo from Amy D Breaking Barriers Cross.  That race just went like poo from the start.  Bad start, and I washed out on the first corner.  I was in 5th, and then on the last climb of the last lap, my rear wheel seized, and I was bucked from my bike.  I managed to get it kinda moving so I could finish out the race without it turning into a duathlon.  Whyyyyy with the weird mechanicals?  Singlespeed bikes aren’t suppose to break…

US Open of Cyclocross Day 1 – My shorts were too short to hold up knee warmers, so I let those aging knees out in their full glory in freezing temperatures! (Photo by Brent Murphy)

The next big weekend was the US Open of Cyclocross at Valmont.  I hate racing singlespeed this weekend as a lot of people who don’t have UCI licenses, but are otherwise cat 1 and 2 racers, pile into the category.  It didn’t really happen the first day this year, but still from the start I didn’t feel good.  Something was off.  I kept tripping on the 5280 run up, and on the last lap I smashed my lower gum/teeth hard into the handlebars.  So much pain!!  I ended up with quite the sexy bruise on my chin, and it hurt to eat.  Sigh.  Revenge of Valmont.

Cross of the North Day 2 cat 3 race – the latest in knee warmer fashion (Photo by Brent Murphy)

I needed to change something up, so I jumped into the women’s cat 3 race on day 2 of US Open of Cyclocross.  I had rediscovered my geared bike at one of the weeknight New Belgium races, and since I had the bike with me for the UCI race, I decided to give it a go (especially since singlespeed was too fast for me on this day).  I had a great race, finishing 5th and really enjoying that shifter and 10 gear selection I had to use!

US Open of Cyclocross Day 2 UCI Elite Women (Photo by Ryan Muncy)

I have a UCI license for 2019.  And dammit, I decided to use it!  I was slightly terrified (okay, really terrified) to enter my first UCI elite women’s cyclocross race,  and even the pre-ride super intimidated me.  This would be my third race of the weekend, so I felt like I was approaching it all wrong, and did I mention that I still have cantilever brakes and have no idea how to pin on shoulder numbers?!  (Luckily some cool dudes in the parking lot gave me the trick to shoulder numbers… water bottle in the sleeve!)  But there I was lined up in not the last row of my first UCI race, and probably the second biggest field I’ve been in for cross.  Naturally at the start it terrifies me, so I’m off the back chasing, and made passes on the climb.  I found myself not in last place!!  I ran those 5280 stairs, and rode harder than I had in a long time, all the while enjoying it.  Then disaster.  On climbing on Pete’s Plunge (nasty off camber) I bumped my rear tire.  This is my first time ever burping a tubeless tire during cross after running them since 2015, and at first I just ignored it.  Then I remounted after the run up and my weight slamming down onto the bike burped more out.  I rode another lap on a  squishy tire, still not in last place.  Then I lost even more.  I was effectively riding sketchy descents on a flat rear tire.  I pulled into the pits and someone rushed to air me back up as I watched the races who I was ahead of ride through.  I knew I was going to get pulled when I came around at this point, as I was in no-woman’s land, so I shrugged, and smiled, and finished out my race.  Last place.  Another “what could have been,” especially since I was riding so strong, and not feeling any pain or “omg this sucks and I’m dying thoughts.”  I was fighting so hard for positions, going aggressive on the descents, and running those damn stairs.  I kicked myself for not putting the singlespeed in the pits, so I at least could’ve had an option.  Oh well.  It was still a great experience and I’m happy I jumped into a UCI race!

Feedback Cup in the mud and slop (Photo by Terri Smith)

I got sick shortly after US Open, so I had to miss Schoolyard Cross and CycloX Louisville.  Feedback Cup in Golden was my return, and the weather gods smiled down with snow, so we would have proper cross conditions!  I didn’t know how my lungs would do, but luckily it wasn’t too cold, and I love these conditions.  I had a very slow start, but made some passes on technical parts and downhills, and found myself leading on the first lap as I let my bike dance in the mud underneath me.  Patricia caught me on the climb back up through the start finish, and I settled in to ride 2nd wheel, forgetting all about the Mrs. Potato Head first lap prime ARGHHHHHH!  (I would’ve gone for it if I remembered).  I knew it was about holding on, and letting my skills do their magic.  Sarah would catch me another lap or so in, and I settled into maintaining 3rd position ahead of some pretty strong racers.  I just was loving the hell out of the course conditions.  Seriously, I love that sensation of what I call “dancing” that my bike does in the mud.  Most people hate it, I love it.  This is why I spend all those hours on a fat bike in the winter on soft snow – so when it gets crappy in cross, I am familiar with how it feels.  Boom, 3rd place… redemption for Amy D cross that was on the same course, and a nice comeback from illness.

CycloX Sienna Lake (Photo by Terri Smith)

Weather gods once again paid me a favor, and the following weekend at CycloX Sienna Lake was snowy, frozen, and muddy.  Just depended on what time of day you raced!  My pre ride was still pretty frozen, with scary deep ruts waiting to buck off unsuspecting cyclists.  By the time we raced, it was semi frozen, but getting muddy.  Suzie jumped into singlespeed, and her and I took off at the start.  I was just happy to hang with one of the coolest girls I know for 1 minute or so, my jaw dropping as she cornered in such a beautiful manner.  We caught the back of the open women insanely early, and wove our way through course traffic on a heavily rutted gravel section.  Sarah motored past me at some point, so I took to maintaining my 3rd place position, enjoying once again that I could put my skills to work to make up for a sore lack of fitness.

Cross of the North Day 1 SW3 (Photo by Terri Smith)

Cross of the North weekend:  my favorite time of the year!  Sadly weather would remain dry, and inhumanly hot, unlike last year where a foot of snow fell.

This weekend was… disappointing.

In Saturday’s cat 3 race I just did not feel good… my stomach cramped and I ended up pulling out after a few laps.  I think it was only my second DNF in a cross race.  But I wanted to make sure I could recover for the main show later in the afternoon, the singlespeed race.

Cross of the North Day 1 singlespeed race (Photo by Brent Murphy)

Probably my most heartbreaking race of 2019 was the singlespeed race on day 1 of Cross of the North.  I took the holeshot, and settled into the lead.  I felt strong, and I was going for the Homan Prime, because making $50 is awesome, and also I consider Cross of the North my hometown race, so I put a lot of pressure on myself to deliver good results here.  I was so close to it, mostly just a sandpit and two run ups standing in my way from taking the prime, and maintaining a podium spot.  The sandpit was long, and near the end my 165 pound body naturally bogged down a bit, so I dismounted to run the last 5 feet of it.  As I dismounted, I was slammed into from behind by the woman behind me in the race, which pinned me underneath my bike, and jarring my handlebars into a position 90 degrees from normal. Race = over, really.  I rode with my awful handlebar position to the run up, and stopped to twist them as back to straight as I could (I couldn’t get them all the way), and proceeded on.  I was nearly in tears, but continued on.  Eventually, I recaught Heather, and she asked if I wanted to ride with her and just drink and take hand ups.  So we did just that… shenanigans abound!  And hey, the more hand ups I took, the straighter my handlebars seemed, ha!  We ended up crossing the finish line holding hands.  We did singlespeed cyclocross properly.  I still cried a lot that night.  It just sucked.  I get racing is racing, but grrrr.

Cross of the North Day 2 cat 3 race (Photo by Terri Smith)

After the events of day 1, day 2 of Cross of the North wasn’t appealing to me.  I showed up, and rode my singlespeed to the Square1 tent, planning on DNS-ing my cat 3 race.  With about 20 minutes to go I looked around, pulled out my bib number, and said “screw it, someone pin me up, I’ll do the cat 3 race!”.  I hustled back to my car and changed bikes, and rode to the start line with no warm up and no pre ride.  Oh, and by then I had two MASSIVE deep, open blisters on both of my heels that strangely formed the day before.  (At least 1.5″ in diameter, each of them.  Seriously, so painful).  And sometimes it’s the races like this where it all goes right!  I had a very strong race, finding the course similar to the weeknight configurations I have memorized, and traded and fought for positions.  I’d end up in 10th, which isn’t shabby as Cross of the North brought out some of the biggest and deepest women’s cat 3 fields of the season.  Boo-yah, a victory for my weekend!  (oh, and no burping.  Tire stopped acting up.  Thanks geared bike…)

Cross of the North Day 2 cat 3 race (Photo by Paul Kumm)

I legit wasn’t going to do the singlespeed race, which was the last race of the day, but then I discovered that it was just Sarah and I registered, and she didn’t want to be on the podium alone.  I agreed to race, and ten seconds in my body tossed up its white surrender flag.  I couldn’t get my heart rate up, and my blisters throbbed.  Knowing I had a guaranteed podium, I resorted to shenanigans and hands, and allowed Suzie to lap me twice.  Ha, Cross of the North… what a fun weekend!

CycloX Westminster (Photo by Brent Murphy)

hate the course of CycloX Westminster.  It’s not singlespeed friendly and has an awful cement staircase.  Yet there I was, still fighting nausea and having not eaten a real meal in about six days, on the starting line.  Everyone thought I was crazy, but it was the final race in the CycloX series so why not.  Yeah, race… went.  LOL.  I managed 2nd overall in the CycloX series, woohoo!

The Wyoming “State Championships” was the next day in Laramie.  I use quotes because this apparently wasn’t sanctioned by Wyoming State Games this year, and I’m not sure even ten people in total showed up, so I’m not putting much value on it being a “championships” compared to other Wyoming states I have raced.  The course was definitely everything a USAC/UCI course isn’t, complete with multiple creek crossings, but was actually quite fun.  I’d end up 2nd, which was expected after not eating for a week and racing the previous day and the fact that Isa is a crazy fast 15 year old.  I joked that I won the “grown ass woman” category.  Either way, always fun to race in Laramie and hop creeks.

But then… I was exhausted.  Mentally. Physically.   Though the Colorado state championships were an absolute mud fest, which makes me giddy, I opted instead of 34 miles on gravel with my friend Leigh and her husband, riding to a brewery in Boulder and getting use to being on a bike for more than 45 minutes.  It was a fun day and I didn’t regret at all not racing states.

No, it wasn’t the picture perfect season I had envisioned.  Racing rarely goes that way anyway.  But I am pleased with progress I gained this year.  I felt more confident on barriers, and had some more success in run ups.  I also just learned to keep moving through adversity, including my first mechanicals in 7 seasons of racing cross.  I might race the last cross race on the Colorado calendar on December 8th, but I haven’t decided.  Otherwise, I’m declaring an end to my 2019 race season!

I always like to shout out to those who helped me be successful the whole year… 9Seventy Racing teammates, the amazing people of Square1 Cycling, Maxxis Tires for their support, Tailwind Nutrition for their support, Theresa Hansen at Little Lotus Yoga, Anthony Zegan of BikeWyo – my ever awesome mechanic, and friends and family who deal with the “no, I’m racing my bike then…” nonsense.

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Oh look… I never write in this anymore

I use to blog every single one of my races, and slowly that has faded away over 7 or so odd years of bike racing.  I came to the realization that although I keep the CO/WY race calendar updated, and my race results page, I hadn’t otherwise written about anything since the Dead Swede.

So my 2019 summer of mountain bike racing went a little like this…

Gowdy Grinder broke my heart.  Second place and I were right together when I snapped my chain about two or three miles into the race.  I ran (not sure why), continuing along the course until my friend Lydia caught me and helped get the chain back on enough I could get to the finish to DNF.  I handed off my bike to my mechanic, and went home and cried in the shower.  I knew I could’ve had such a great race once we got into the technical stuff where being a local is an advantage.  I give up on ever racing another Gowdy Grinder.

Laramie MTB Series started, and we had really weird run of weather with cold temperatures and rain.  I love rain and crappy conditions, so I rode to 1st place in Race #1 (yes, I actually raced against someone… they just didn’t call her up for podium), and 3rd place in race #2.  The rest of the LMBS series I toodled off the back of every race, struggling to push like 4mph.  Meh.  I would end up finishing third overall in the series, so I’m back on the open women’s overall podium.  Last time I was on it was in 2016 when I won the whole she-bang, so it was a reunion of sorts.

One of my “A” races for 2019 was the Bear Bait 8.  I first did this race last year as my first taste of an endurance solo event, and I loved the course so it was easy to sign up to give it another go.  My friend Wendy accompanied me to the race, which is always fun.  I really wanted to win, so I focused on hammering my first lap to build a lead, and then remain steady from there on out.  The first 4-5 hours of the race went by really fast, and I was way ahead of 2018’s pace.  Then my body realized it’s not built for racing for 8 hours, and I hopped on the struggle bus a bit.  I came through at 7 hours 45 minutes, completing my eighth lap, and debated going out on an nineth lap, but my back was fried.  Nonetheless, it was enough to secure the “W” and best of all, the biggest payout I’ve gotten at a race ($300!!).


For whatever reason, after June ended I stopped riding my bike.  Great preparation going into the national championships, ha!  I registered for nationals just for the experience and the fact that Winter Park is mere hours from my house.  Surprisingly I found the course to not be as horrid as I was expecting, as the climbing is never too steep.  It was sorely lacking in technical terrain, but had enough tight, rooty, downhills to play to my advantages.

Cat 1 women started at 7:35am, and a start line crash happened near me in the field of 15, which I was able to swerve around, and I got a decent start on the first of three laps.  Once I hit the tight downhill single track I made several passes.  That would be the story… get passed on the climbs, drop ’em on the downhills.  I think I was as high as 7th place at times, and would settle for 10th after a good battle with the gal who ended up in 9th.  I was legit expecting to be last place at nationals (so did USAC’s race predictor…), so to finish in the Top 10 made me super happy.  Oh to race without expectations!

Dejan Smaic getting a great photo of me on one of the climbs

Hard, but satisfying effort! If only the whole race was either one lap, or just downhill…

I had the Laramie Enduro… or Laramie Range Epic… whatever the name is now, the next day after nationals, which was just stupid (can you tell which one I registered for first?). This was my final “A” mountain bike race of the year, but I adjusted expectations when I stopped riding in July and decided on nationals. People were fast this year, and I wasn’t so fast.  I did take six minutes off my 2018 time, but instead of the podium, I landed in 5th.  So I immediately left, headed home to shower and to recover…

My feelings about racing 32 miles the day after racing a XC national championship race

Because the next day was nationals short track.  Yes.  I made my own stage race apparently.

Short track at nationals was the race of “could’ve beens” as the course was exactly what would be awesome for me and my power curve, but alas the legs were toast after going couch-to-three-races-in-a-row.  Still, wasn’t last place, though I was so excited when I got pulled under the 80% rule.

Suzie grabbed a photo of me during short track nationals

And that was it.  I finished my mountain bike season on a Sunday at short track nationals, and started my cyclocross training plan on Tuesday.  Time to get to the fun stuff!

I still think I’m trying to figure out what I think about mountain bike racing.  Maybe it’s because I got stuck in a groove of always racing the same ol’ stuff year after year.  2020 just may be the first year that I do not spend Memorial Day weekend in Gunnison racing the Growler, which I have done since 2015.  Maybe it’s because I’m still working through my own feelings of dealing with not being as fast as I once was – well, as fast as I once was going uphill.  My descending has gotten faster and better every year, so I might have to play around with that (downhill at nationals anyone?).  So I shall see where 2020 takes me on the mountain bike!

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Race Report: The Dead Swede

The Dead Swede – June 1, 2019 (Photo: Powder River Photography)

Oh gravel racing, you trendy new thing you.

OK, so I’ve done a few gravel races I suppose, mostly Old Man Winter Bike Rally (3 times) and a fundraiser called Roads to Ruts in Douglas, but both were either in the winter or very low key events.  The Dead Swede in Sheridan, WY, would mark my foray into one of the bigger gravel races exploding onto the scene.

  1. Sheridan is an amazing place to ride.  And it’s in Wyoming.
  2. I wanted a podium
  3. I had teammates going which meant for once I would not have to drive to a race (!!!)

The Dead Swede has a few distance options – 100, 40, and 20 miles.  Because I have only once rode 100 miles on a bike, I opted for the 40 mile distance as I knew my hacked together fit on my cyclocross-turned-“gravel” bike wouldn’t bring out any weird pains at that distance, and also that I know I can hammer that long.  In a weird bike race season that is either a triumph mountain peak or a barren canyon of despair, I haven’t been setting too many goals… except for the Dead Swede.  I wanted to win… well, podium.  I’ll take that.  I’m trying to be better at realizing I can’t control anything about the race except for me, and sometimes you just have to accept a faster person registered (but it doesn’t mean I won’t give them hell on the first climb and make them work for it for a little while!).

After a fun road trip on Friday with dino-sitting, Moe’s, and exploring our amazing AirBnB, my three teammates plus Sam (eh, he became honorary 9Seventy Racing for the weekend I suppose) readied our bikes and prepared for what lay ahead.  I kept joking that they were all my domestiques that would tow me to the finish, which I think started to annoy all the boys.

Mike, Sam, me, Eric, and Ty, all with consecutive number plates to boot.

Sam, Mike, and I picked the front row of the 330+ 40 mile racers that lined up.  I hate mass starts, and I hate them even more in a crowd mostly filled with people that have never road raced or ridden in a peloton.  The incredibly short neutral roll out took place, and then bam!  8 miles of pavement to get us warmed up.  For the most part the pace was fast but reasonable, with some surges and weird slow downs.  Someone tried an attack, but I also think they were 15 (and would win it overall), so nobody really chased.  I kept my eye on the Douglas squad, which all seemed to be working for Terri.  Dammit, where’s my domestiques?!  LOL.

Sam and I leading out the pack at the start of the Dead Swede. In front and safe!

After eight miles we hit the gravel and immediately the first big climb of the day.  The still air combined with my black skin suit and hot sun made me want to melt but I made it to the top as the first female.  I think over the next several miles I stayed close to Chuck and Terri, but eventually dropped off.  But it was cool, because I was having fun and so excited I was feeling powerful and fast, especially after the disappointing race a week prior at the Gunnison Half Growler.  Time to maintain this second overall female position!

First climb after turning onto the gravel… regretting the black skin suit as the sun shone down.

Super, crazy fast descents (well, if you’re me… I descend a bit recklessly on gravel… wait, I mean 43mph on 32mm tires and useless cantilever brakes on loose gravel is totally safe…), long grindy uphills.  The gorgeous scenes of Sheridan County flew by along with the miles, and surprisingly quickly I reached Dayton for a tiny bit of pavement before turning back towards Sheridan.  The next gravel road was rolly, falsely flat, had a mild headwind, and was hot. I started picking off 20 mile racers, who started in Dayton, hoping everyone would hold their line as I flew around on the downhills in some sort of silly aero tuck (making that skin suit do it’s job, clearly).  Around hour one I started sipping my Tailwind, cognizant of the fact I needed to be taking on the calories and hydration in the sun.

The third (in my mind) signifiant climb loomed in front of me and I sighed and shifted into the granny gear to spin up.  To my surprise, Tony from Rapid City caught me.  Tony and his crew saved my sanity during the 2015 Tour de Wyoming, and soon we were flying up the hill together, catching up on the last four years of our lives (which consisted of “I stopped racing and training.”  “Hey, so did I!”).  I’d hang with him until the beer and bacon aid station, which I blew past.  But I enjoyed the company… my pace up that climb had definitely quickened with Tony distracting me!

Tony and I smiling and chatting up one of the longer climbs of the day

Soon traffic picked up, just in time for the final climb.  Which was a miserable hill with a false summit.  The vehicle traffic kicked up dust climbs to insult my lungs, and due to the traffic, we all had to climb in the loose gravel on the side which added some trickiness.  I caught my teammate Ty as Sam came around me – I had thought Sam was miles in front of me, but turns out he was chasing back from a double flat.

Pavement.  Ugh.  The last handful of miles on the pavement sucked.  I had flatted on a road ride in Sheridan last summer, so I was weary of the shoulders and road debris, sticking to the travel lane.  I didn’t want to risk anything.  Ooooo the school… I’m close… ooooo the bike path, I’m even closer!  Yesssss the steep downhill into the park… YESSSS THE FINISH LINE!

2nd place overall women, 2nd place 30-49 women, 13th place overall out of 330 or so racers. 2 hours and 26 minutes.


(And all done on a 2012 Specialized Crux with canti brakes and relatively narrow tires in comparison to today’s trends, and hamburger seat bag. I thumb my nose at you, industry marketing tactics!)

Beer at the finish line!!  And uncomfortably tight skin suit sleeves not meant for a chick with a bit of arm muscles.  

It’s been a long time, or even never, since I have been this proud of my race effort and finish.  I raced smart in the opening pavement miles, hiding in the pack.  I railed the descents, and made sure to stay steady on the climbs.  I put forth a solo time trial effort over most of the course, much of it into a hot headwind all by myself.  I was so freaking happy!

40 Mile Women’s 30-49 age group podium

So yeah… I like this gravel stuff.  It’s a whole new different style of racing.  It has some roadie tactics without the 15-20 hour a week training commitment Colorado women’s cat 3 road racing seems to command just to not get dropped in the first fifteen seconds.  It has a need of skills that crosses over from cyclocross and mountain biking.  It has crazy awesome courses on little travel roads.  And in events like the Dead Swede, it has crazy huge women’s fields!

Sam got 3rd in his age category even after two flats! We took our trophy mugs to dinner!

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Before I knew it… it’s gonna be (no wait, it IS) Mayyyy

So where exactly has 2019 gone?  I guess it is true – time just keeps speeding up faster and faster the older you get.  I’m already six races into my 2019 season, and haven’t written about a single one!

I kicked off 2019 with the Old Man Winter Bike Rally in February.  I had planned on doing the 100km long course, but end of January my whole pre-season was derailed by a crazy sinus and respiratory infection.  I played it safe, and bumped down to the 50km course.  I was off the bike for a considerable amount of time, so really didn’t know what to expect.  Unlike when I did Old Man in 2017, this year was cold (mid 20s) and sloppy.  I was riding in a podium position for about half the race, but then bonked.  My bottles froze, which is the downfall to running a purely liquid form of nutrition, so I also didn’t take in any calories.  I would end up 7th place out of 97 women in 1 hour 50 minutes, which I find to be crazy impressive considering I was still on antibiotics and feeling like I was functioning with half a lung.

Woohoo for surviving Old Man Winter!!

Then came a lapse in mental judgement, when I decided I would race some criteriums in March.  Yes, criterium as in crit, as in those things I swear I will not race because they’re the most dangerous things ever.  I dunno, I’m just as confused as you are.

March 23rd was the Louisville Crit, which seemed to have an okay course.  I parked by my pro roadie friend Mel, and we rode to registration together.  Cat 3 women would start with the P12’s, which is just silly if you ask me.  I almost missed the start because I was too busy not preparing to race my bike.  I was dropped in the first ten seconds of the race, so I began my 50 minutes of solo TT effort.  About halfway through I started yelling at the Square1 folks and photographers about wanting a beer hand up, and behold, on the next lap, Barry was on course with a beer in his outstretched hand!!!  I may have finished DFL in this race, but I won in fun had because I GOT A BEER HANDUP IN A CRIT!  That is all.  Also, don’t attempt to sprint against Ashley Zoener.  Even my 800 watts was child’s play.  Lesson learned.

At least Brent Murphy Photography got a photo of me appearing to be speedy at the Louisville Crit

Riding my beer handup high, I entered the Oredigger CSP Crit the following weekend.  This race really isn’t very crit-y, and takes place on the Colorado Highway Patrol training track.  So needless to say, all I did was wish I was ripping around it in a car.  This time I hung with the Cat3/4/5 group for about two or so laps before I was dropped and began my solo TT for 22nd place, which was not last, for the record.  Hey, I get the most of my entry fee!

First lap of the Oredigger CSP Crit (Photo – Brent Murphy Photography)

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Once again, Brent Murphy Photography made the race worth it with a crazy amazing photo!

Because I pretty much stopped formally training at the end of January when I got sick, my fitness was being very slow to coming around, and I was beginning a crazy intense block of travel for work.  Boulder Roubaix was wayyyyy faster than the previous time I had raced it in cat 3, mostly thanks to young juniors who apparently can just sprint for hours on end.  The gravel was fairly sketchy this year, and there were flats galore and crashes.  I hung on for about half a lap before being dropped.  I was in last place for awhile, but finally caught the girl in front of me and was able to distance myself from her.  I stopped briefly to check on Heather who had flatted and was walking it out.  In the end, I’d get 11th place.  Not last.  I got some tan lines.

I’m smiling a lot more in race photos this year. Boulder Roubaix. (Photo – Shawn Curry)

Must. Climb. Steep. Hill. Boulder Roubaix. (Photo – Shawn Curry)

Finally it was time to end the road racing nonsense with the CSU Cobb Lake Road Race in mid-April.  Pulling in for my volunteer shift, I was pretty set on not starting the race.  Less than an hour before the start, I pulled my bib numbers and walked to my car and got ready.  I am so happy that I decided to start!  I actually like this circuit course, and every time I race it I end up just riding solo most of the time, and I don’t mind it.  Strangely enough, two laps in I was still in the front pack, which included Jennifer Valente (a Google search tells me she’s an Olympic medalist… so you know, not slow at all).  Third lap of the six lap race I was dropped on the climb.  That’s probably the hardest thing for me as I struggle with weight and regaining form is not being able to climb like I use to, so my ego cried a bit.  I put in the work to try to catch the group, aided by Dejan, who was moto-reffing for the day, cheering me on during a crazy sprint effort when I recontacted the group… to have them all take off sprinting.  Yeah, I don’t get road race tactics.  Oh well, onward I continued.  I was lapped by a finishing men’s category at the end of my 5th lap, and there were a few seconds of confusion while the officials debated if I had another lap to do or not.  I didn’t want a DNF, so out on the sixth lap I went.  Whew.  Long race… I was last among the finishers, but there were three DNF’s.  I am happy I wasn’t a DNS, as DFL is better than a DNS!

CSU Cobb Lake Road Race, gravel section. The best condition it’s been in that I can remember. (Photo – Ryan Korzyniowski)

Pedaling. Up. Another. Hill. Ugh. (Photo – Ryan Korzyniowski)

And then I started a crazy two weeks which included travel to Las Vegas, then straight to Florida, then back for barely 48 hours before heading to England and then onto Finland. No bikes, and sea level.  Great combo heading into mountain bike race season!

The UW Cycling Team decided to host a race on the brand new trail system east of Laramie called the Schoolyard Scramble on May 4th, and I figured it was a lot better than getting my butt handed to me down in Castle Rock at Ridgeline Rampage.  I get my bike off the car, and go to warm up, and immediately hear a loud, “liquid squishing” sound coming from my rear shock.  I let Alan, John, and finally Dewey from the Pedal House listen to it, who confirmed it was blown, but “still okay to race on.”  Greattttt.  I silently thanked my lucky stars I never sold my other Epic (aka “the old race bike”) so I would have something to race the Growler on in a few weeks, and took to the starting line.

I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous at the starting line of the Schoolyard Scramble.  My rear shock was so nervous it was peeing itself.  

Schoolyard Scramble had the weirdest XC race start ever… where we just soft pedaled.  I eyed Isabell, watching to see if she’d jump, but nothing.  Finally with the single track appearing, I jumped in front, and pushed the pace, and she stuck on my back wheel and we dropped Melanie and the rest of the field.  It was all going well until on a fast downhill I followed the guy in front of me off course, which allowed Isabel to jump into the lead.  Dammit!  So I took to just keeping my pace steady, staying upright, and not listening to the liquid squishing sound.  I noticed my handling skills were quite rusty, and I wanted to over steer on every corner.  Eek.  However, I kinda felt like a bit of my old XC racer self, which was a relief!  I’d finish second, a little under a minute back from Isabel, and about a minute over Melanie.  And the best part is I got a UW cycling team kit as my prize!!  Woohoo!


With my mountain bike race season started, I feel a new renewed interest in mountain bike racing.  I know deep down I am shifting towards cyclocross being my primary discipline, but I think having last year off from an intense mountain bike season has rekindled my fire a bit.  Though my season is really a 180-degree difference than the one I had planned, I still want to race a lot and just enjoy the fact I can race a bike.  So needless to say, I’ve filled every weekend through June 8th with mountain bike races, including a USAC nationals qualifier (Battle the Bear), just so I’m qualified just in case I decide to race nationals for the experience.

Here we go…


Let’s get this started! 2019 Kick Off & Sponsor Love

Oh man, where has the time gone?  I blinked, and went from cyclocross season to the beginning of March just like that!

First, I want to give ONE BIG SHOUT OUT to my amazing sponsors and supporters for my 2019 race season.


I am once again honored to be a part of 9Seventy Racing, a multi-sport racing team based in Fort Collins, CO (but with awesome teammates from all over the Front Range, Western Slope, and even Durango, CO… and then me in WY).

Also returning for 2019 is Tailwind Nutrition, the only fuel and recovery brand I trust for my training and racing – and all my adventures in between!  I am so happy to be returning as one of their official Trailblazers for the fourth year in a row.

New for 2019 is Maxxis Tires.  I switched to using Maxxis Tires in 2017 for my XC mountain bike race season, and never looked back.  They perform great (hence why world champions use them), and are tough to stand up to whatever gnarly stuff the trails can throw at them.

And, last but not least, Dirt Components!  Still nothing better than those pretty carbon fiber Thumper wheels on my fat bike during the winter!


My 2019 race plans have changed seemingly weekly as I figure out what I want from my season.  I did give myself a taster of racing in February with the Old Man Winter Bike Rally, where I placed 7th out of 97 ladies in the 50km gravel race.  Otherwise, my race season will begin in April with some early road racing (weather pending… we actually are having a winter this year!), and mountain biking begins in May!

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2018 Cyclocross Season – Just keep fighting

I’ve never been a mantra type person.  Never really had a saying or anything, except for some self-talk like “keep it smooth” or “don’t freaking wreck now!” in the heat of a mountain bike race.  But this past cyclocross season taught me something, and morphed into the mantra I ended up embracing: Keep Fighting.

I really didn’t know what to expect from cyclocross this year.  Honestly, it’s my favorite discipline and I was just very excited to get back to my little wacky cross family for a few months, but my fitness never seemed to recover to previous levels after surgery.  Nonetheless, I decided I would attend every Front Range BRAC/USAC cross race, minus the three I’d miss due to my Iceland trip (I know, horrrrribbbbllleeee excuse!).  I’ve never raced every single event in the season; in fact, I barely did any races in 2017.  I also decided to supplement the USAC stuff with weeknight races at New Belgium and a few of the Southeast Wyoming CX Series races.  Ambitious.  Maybe crazy.

So after nearly a month off the bike and three weeks spent hiking around at nearly sea level, I dived into the 2018 cyclocross season in the single speed category.


  1. The single speed women’s category grew… like double/triple from last year
  2. It got super fast
  3. Ummm, I barely ride a bike

The first race at Primalpalooza on September 30th was a disaster for me.  I ended up finishing minutes off the back.  I think I was just walking my bike at one point.  It was miserable and heart wrenching.  Immediately I thought “oh crap,” and stared at all the races I plotted out.  Now, some might roll their eyes and think I only like racing a bike when I’m winning.  Which hey, winning is super nice, but so is also not being like 4 minutes off the next racer.  I thought I maybe jumped in over my head.

A good photographer will make you appear a lot faster than you actually are! Primalpalooza (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography)

But alas, the skin suit came out one week later at CycloX Interlocken.  It was rainy, which led to some slippery conditions which plays to my technical strengths.  I had a decent start, and on the second lap was just about to contact 4th & 5th places when I got lost on course, rode the sand pit twice, and later got lost AGAIN near the end of the lap.  So… freaking… frustrated.  Luckily, I was able to make up a few positions, and ended up a mid-pack 6th, which was a relief.  OK, it’s still there.  Barely, and with some weird route finding issues, but there.  But I did find myself whispering over and over “Keep fighting, Heidi, keep fighting!”

Next big weekend was the US Open of Cyclocross weekend at Valmont.  I always race like poo at Valmont, but I do like the mountain bike-ness of the course, and the fact I can usually find something to launch my bike off of.  I had a good start on Saturday, but for some reason decided to not turn my bike in a gravel corner, which caused me to panic brake and wipe out.  Seriously, WTF?!  I ended up 4th on the tough course that involve to many steep run ups, but one awesome jump I went off of every lap to spectaculars’ delight.  Once again, mid-pack.  Sunday’s conditions had me eagerly bouncing off the walls, with weather doing a 180 and dumping about a foot of snow on the course.  Usually Valmont races are hot sufferfests, so I was all for the snow!  I had a great start, but soon my shoes and my pedals each were balls of ice, which led to me having to strider-bike a lot of parts where Sarah could clip in and keep pedaling.  The time I wasted trying to get my feet to even contact my pedals for more than 2 seconds meant a 2nd place finish.  But finally, in my 6th season of racing cyclocross, I got my elusive podium at Valmont!  Only took a ton of snow for it to happen.  Lesson learned to pack some flat pedals in case of a repeat.

US Open Day 1 – bare skin (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography)

US Open Day 2 – No bare skin in sight (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography


With a podium behind me, I dived into the following weekend, deciding to also race my women’s geared cat 3 category at Schoolyard Cross after the single speed race.  Schoolyard was a bit annoying, as we started after the cat 5 men, which led to a lot of guys blocking the path.  I sat in 3rd most of the race, but kept getting caught up in men falling over in front of me, or zooming around me on flat/straights and then slowing up horribly in the corners and blocking my way.  The lost seconds added up, and I settled for 4th.  Shoot.  However, in the cat 3 race, I had an amazing start, and held on for 5th place, even though I kept forgetting I could shift on the bike.  I hadn’t raced cat 3 in nearly 3 years, so it was a nice change.  I split a hotel with my friend Wendy, just like we did “back in the day,” which was quite enjoyable.

Schoolyard Cross – A case of racing bitch face (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography)

CycloX Louisville, aka Bowl of Death, was the day after Schoolyard.  My legs definitely felt the previous day’s efforts, and Bowl of Death is no cake walk.  There were a few position changes throughout the race, and I knew I just had to keep pushing to hold onto my 5th place.  Once again, that whole Keep Fighting thing came up.  I professed my love to Meredith Miller as she lapped me.  Sometimes the suffering just needs to end!

Mashing my legs to death at Bowl of Death (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography)

By now, it was end of October, and it seemed like we were on the downward side of the cross season hump.  I launched into my first official week of 2019 training, motivated by ambitious race plans to get back to structured intervals and the trainer.  I knew it can always be a challenge to juggle intervals and base training while still racing cross twice a weekend, but I felt up for it.

I’ve never raced the Feedback Cup before, and was nervous how the course would treat me, as it seemed very fitness based vs. skills.  It was also hot in the morning, so I decided to race without gloves because I felt too overheated (I think this was the last time I’d think that this cross season).  I had a great start, keeping on Errin’s back wheel.  The course at race speeds ends up being a blast, and challenging.  The field strung out a bit, and Michelle and I traded positions a few times before I could power away on a gentle climb.  Now sitting in 3rd, I knew I wanted this podium more than anything else at that moment in time.  I pushed and pushed to increase the gap, as I knew Michelle was quicker on the two sections that required being off the bike.  Excitingly enough, I finished on the lead lap, and was not lapped by the open women!  3rd place, amazing podium hair, so excited!

First lap traffic at Feedback Cup (Photo by Wet Bear Photo)


Tired legs greeted me for Sunday’s race that weekend, the Republic Cycles Northglenn race.  I had decided to do 15 miles of gentle mountain biking in Boulder County to kill time Saturday afternoon, and was semi-worried it was too much for my legs.  Oh well… it was the Halloween race, and shenanigans were meant to be had!  The course, which is rather flat aside from steep, loose hills on the backside, was fast.  The start was fast and furious, and Sarah and I took to the front.  I ended up rear ending Sarah twice on the first lap, which is the great thing about racing single speed… it’s really hard to break the bikes!  Sarah would end up gapping me off the front, so I settled into maintaining my 2nd place position.  This race made for the best podium photo of the year, with me and a giant bottle of vodka, Sarah with her winner’s jersey, and Melissa just posing completely normal with the two lunatics.  OK, maybe the mojo is back…

Loose, steep hills made the Northglenn race tough (Photo by Ryan Muncy Photography)


So one of my biggest flaws that I’ve always had as a bike racer is mentally setting myself up for the outcome based on pre-registration lists and who shows up at the start line.  You know, one of those, “ughhhh SHE registered, now we’re all racing for 2nd” type of mentalities.  I’m bad about it at cross.  I see Liz, Heather, and Errin (aka the Mosaic squad) roll up, and I know I’m racing for mid-pack-off-the-podium at that point.  I don’t care how many times you tell me I’ve beaten them or hung onto their wheels, I won’t believe it.  CycloX Sienna Lake started out just like that.  It downpoured rain during our pre-ride, and while I was giddy to race in more crappy conditions, I knew the “fast chicks” were there.  BAM!  We start and I’m 3rd wheel.  Umm… where’s Errin?  Well, ok, they’ll catch me soon enough.  Pedal pedal pedal, run smartly, bang mud off my cleats, clip in and GOOOOOO.  Errin is back there, but I’m holding her off.  KEEP FIGHTING DAMMIT!  And so I did, oh so hard on the slick course.  Second to last lap I gave up hope of securely clipping in and took to single speeding on essentially flat pedals as I knew I was losing precious seconds.  I ran the run ups, and rode smart.  3rd place!!!  Time to stop with the start line prophecies.

Rain switched to sun after my race started, but left lots of mud! (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography)


I raced in Laramie the day after Sienna Lake.  50mph head winds and bitter cold temps.  My mom came out to watch which was fun.  Laprele Park is horribly bumpy, and tumbleweed kept getting stuck in my cantilever brakes on my geared bike.  I won the women’s category, and ordered a new geared bike the next day with disc brakes.  Whoops.

Finally it was time for the most wonderful weekend of the year:  CROSS OF THE NORTH!!!  Seriously, I LIVE for this weekend every fall.  It’s the closest I get to a “hometown” race for cross, and I love how many are out there cheering and heckling me.    I decided to be ultra ambitious this weekend, and registered for SSW and SW3 both days. I had the new geared bike and I love the course/venue so much that it seemed smart.

Saturday’s SSW race took place at a chilly 8am.  Like Schoolyard, we had the luxury of starting behind the cat 5 men.  And by luxury, I mean headache.  Another fast start, so we soon began catching them.  Errin had a good, clean, impressively fast race, and took to the front, and never looked back.  I settled into second, with Liz and Sarah stalking me from behind.  I felt odd during this race, like I was experiencing it from out of my body, and never really felt like I was in it.  But I kept on pedaling, enjoying the technical features that I’ve use to racing on between the short track and weekday cross series held on the same course.  Eventually on the second to last lap Liz, Sarah, and I would all end up together, and I knew it would important to get my crap together for the final lap.  Sarah slipped into 2nd, and I all out sprinted to maintain my 3rd place over Liz.  In the end, I think less than 3 seconds separated 2nd-4th places!  Such an exciting race, but that final sprint was horribly painful!  Most importantly, I kept my COTN podium streak alive, with my 4th year of appearing on a single speed podium! (2015 – 3rd SS4/5; 2016 – 3rd SS4/5; and 2017 – 1st SSW).  I took to some recovery, and enjoyed a sloppy SW3 race in the afternoon, still trying to figure out what I’m suppose to do with a shifter.  But my new bike rocked!

Being gimpy on the barriers in the SSW race of Cross of the North day 1 (Photo by Terri Smith)


Probably one of my favorite race images ever! SW3 race on day 1 of Cross of the North (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography)

Sunday’s weather forecast held up its end of the bargain for COTN, and snow greeted me in the morning.  Once again, I was giddy to be racing in sloppy, icy conditions, and wondered what I did to appease the weather gods as Colorado cross seasons are usually 70 degrees, dry, and horribly dusty.  The cat 5 men ended up being a huge ordeal to deal with, especially on the first lap.  Sarah got off the front, and once again Liz and I battled out for our positions, with Heather sneaking up on us.  By the last lap a curvy section of the course turned into an ice skating rink, and Liz and I took turns wrecking in front of each other numerous times, getting to be so comical I was just laughing.  Finally I was able to stay upright long enough to create a gap, and hold onto 2nd place.  Yessssssssssss!  My SW3 race in the afternoon was the muddiest bike affair I’ve been part of aside from the 2014 Rumble at 18 Road.  New bike was given a thorough mud coating, along with my mouth, teeth, face, and every item of clothing.  I managed to fight to hold my 6th place finish after the next girl getting pretty close to me a few times.  I’m getting better at this fighting thing!


Breaking in my new bike properly at day 2 of Cross of the North (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography)

Sometimes cyclocross gets a bit muddy… (Photo by Ryan Muncy Photography)

Coming off 5 races of podiums and a great COTN weekend, I was optimistic for the rest of the season, but naturally cautious and still predicting my finish based on who I lined up with.  CycloX Westminster was greeted with freezing rain.  It was actually quite awful.  I had a decent start, but suddenly my lungs gave me a big fact NO and I struggled to breathe in the moist, frozen 25-degree air.  As racer after racer passed me in my category, I got a bit down, but eventually pulled on my big girl chamois and fought to stay not-last-place.  Before the last lap I even had to toss my glasses as they had a thick ice layer over them.  The bike was all icy, and even my chest and arms had an ice layer frozen to the fabric.  I like bad conditions, but not freezing rain.  I held on for 6th place, wheezing at the finish line and hightailing it home to set up an appointment with my doc.  You need to breathe to race a bike…

Before the ice started sticking to every surface at CycloX Westminster (Photo by Ryan Muncy Photography)

The following day was the Wyoming Cyclocross State Championships here in Cheyenne.  I hadn’t raced a state champs for Wyoming since 2015, when I easily pedaled to the win.  I didn’t know what to expect this time around, as there’s some fast junior girls coming up in this area, and that sneaking fear Christy Olson could always appear, and I always am aware of the large target on my bike when I race in southeastern Wyoming.  Luckily it was sunny, not too windy, and mid-30s, which turned Clear Creek Park into another mud fest.  I swear I can’t keep the new bike clean!  The course was very nicely designed, and utilized some good terrain features for off camber climbs and descents, sand pits, barriers, and tight turns.  My plan was to go out hard, build a big lead, and then just hang on.  Being non-USAC, Wyoming cross races tend to run a lot longer than the BRAC mandated 40-45 minutes the women see in Colorado.  I knew I probably had an hour of racing to do.  I executed my plan… and something totally cool happened… I finished on the lead lap of the open men!  I wasn’t lapped by the fast dudes!  Bad thing is I had a nearly 70 minute long race… but I wasn’t lapped!  Wahooooo!  Proud of this win for sure!

Fun course at the Wyoming State Championships race in Cheyenne!


Then it was two weeks off before the Colorado State Championships.  I briefly considered driving to Fruita to race the USAC double-header there to pad my CO Cross Cup standing, but realized I didn’t want to deal with I-70 traffic and wanted some quality family time (I’d curse when I’d see some SSW ladies go race it in the end… looked like an awesome course!).  Kubo and I got out on the fat bikes for a ride, and otherwise we ate lots and relaxed.

The CO State Championships were at Salisbury Equestrian Park in Parker, where I rode to a 1st place finish last year on a muddy day.  No mud this year, just hardback dirt and freezing cold temperatures.  The single speed was at 4pm Saturday evening, meaning it was even colder, and getting dark fast (I’d finish after sunset).  In what USAC is maintaining as “an honest mistake,” they intermixed the women in with the men, which meant one gal had a front row start and the rest of us were in rows 3-4.  Not ideal and we all exchanged confused banter and looks at the start.  I lucked out with a good start thanks to a parting of the men I could ride through and took off.  I’d end up settling in 4th place, until the steep run up that was hard as concrete and slippery took my mojo and I was passed.  So there I was in 5th, fighting, with a charging Liz, Sarah, and Melissa behind me.  If this was a time to keep fighting, it was now with 1.5x cup points on the line, and a desire to at least say I was top 5.  I once again came around the finish with Liz a few seconds off my back wheel and I nearly cried thinking of the pain of the COTN sprint.  Luckily, it didn’t come down a full on sprint.  Whew.  5th place!

The sun setting on the 2018 cyclocross season (Photo by Brent Murphy Photography)

Sunday of the state races I raced in SW3.  I had the 3rd call up , which made me giggle as a junior girl thought they were calling her name instead.  Big, tall 35 year old me in a sea of teenage girls!  They took off fast at the start, and I hung to them, because hey, I have like 100 pounds of extra body weight which translates into one hell of a sprint and wattage cottage when needed.  My great position ended at the steep wall run up, which everyone struggled to get up without slipping (100 extra pounds is a disadvantage when climbing straight up on slippery dirt apparently).  So it was back to fighting for my mid-to-bottom pack finish.  Racing with more than one gear available is super hard, and even harder on a fast course like Salisbury.  On the last lap Lia would end up sneaking onto me, and into the tree portion coming into the finish she attempt to sprint past.  I don’t know where I got the watts from, but I responded to the sprint and held her off through the sharp 180 turn into the finishing straight.  Crap!  I have to sprint again!  Except we were sprinting straight into the back of the cat 4 winner who was posting up.  Nonetheless we went for it, me getting the advantage in what felt like in my mind an impressive bike throw.  I honestly wish I could’ve seen the finish line camera photo from it… cat 4 girl all posting up, two crazy cat 3’s behind her sprinting for 9th and 10th!

Finally the final race of the year… the Rocky Mountain Regional Championships.  Though a bit fitness course, I do enjoy it.  My race ended up not going as well as I wanted.  I had a pretty solid first two laps, staying on Errin’s wheel in 4th place.  I managed to power past her on the 3rd lap, and had a great gap until I slid out on one of the off camber, grass downhills.  This completely killed my mojo, and my heart spiked to 196 as I ran up the hill.  I’d proceed to fall back and back, eventually finishing 5th.  But not before I took a double beer hand up on the last lap!  So not exactly the result I wanted to have (and almost did, if I didn’t wreck), but at least I finished, which is more than I can say for regionals last year!  My placing was good enough to land me in 2nd place for the third year in a row for the Colorado Cross Cup for single speed women!!

Chasing Errin for a few laps at Regionals (Photo by Ty Branch)

So that’s my 2018 cyclocross season in one long nutshell.  A season that taught me to never give up, fight for every position, whether it’s a podium or not-last-place.  To never look at the women around me and determine what place I’ll finish on their race resume alone.  A season to use oxyclean to get out all the mud and grime, and to never wear drop-tail Pearl Izumi thermal bibs ever again.  A season that finally gave me my mantra:  Keep fighting.  And that applies to so many more aspects of the world than a cyclocross race.

A long, ambitious cyclocross season takes a village.  Though an individual sport on the course, no one can do it alone.  To my boyfriend,  who came and cheered and held bikes, and otherwise dealt nicely with the weird ass world that is cyclocross and competitive cycling, and my parents for dealing with another “no, I have to race that weekend, I’ll see you in mid-December” answer to planning time together.  My team, 9Seventy Racing, and awesome teammates who also raced cross, or who would volunteer, cheer, etc.  My extended cross family, that feels like a team though we all hail from other teams.. .from Feedback Sports jumping in to helping with wheel issues both days of CO States, Tricia loaning me a heart rate monitor, Without Limits for granting volunteer opportunities.  The awesome, amazing, STRONG women of Colorado’s single speed category, who aren’t afraid to fight for women’s cycling and ensure we have a better playing field to play on.  Tailwind Nutrition for keeping me fueled and recovered, especially on those crazy back to back weekends, or double race days.  Anthony Zegan of BikeWyo (best bike mechanic ever!!) for keeping my bikes running smoothly.  Patrick and the team at the Bicycle Station for getting me my pretty new Specialized Crux in an amazingly quick time.  To Alan and Seth for posting “mediocre” on all my podium photos as an inside joke.

It’s time to rest, and train up for my most ambitious year yet – 2019.

Gear Review

All you need, all day expanded: Tailwind Nutrition Rebuild Recovery Drink

Ahhhhh recovery drinks.  The bane of my cycling existence.  I think I’ve tried multiple kinds over the years, none of which were rememberable enough for me to recall their names.  The only one I could say I used “regularly” (aka 5 times a year max) was chocolate milk.  I remember for mountain bike nationals in 2014 I bought a case of Nesquik chocolate milk at Sam’s Club.  The key was it didn’t need to be refrigerated (!!!), so it was car friendly for that two week long road trip.

So long story short… I wasn’t doing much for my recovery after training and races.


Thankfully, Tailwind Nutrition swooped in to save the day with their Rebuild Recovery mix.

I gotta admit, I was skeptical, even though I swear by Tailwind’s Endurance Fuel for my nutritional needs on a bike, XC skis, hiking boots, whatever.  Mix something flavored chocolate with water?!  Are you crazy?  Chocolate goes in milk!  (I always mixed protein/recovery mixes with milk historically.)  After being a guinea pig for some interesting flavors during the testing phases, I received the vanilla and chocolate flavors in their final production form.  I hesitantly poured it into a Blender Bottle with water.  I scrunched up my face and sipped it.  And drank… and drank… and let my face unscrunch… damn, it’s not bad!

And that’s how Heidi started using a recovery mix after workouts and races.

First, some information from the horse’s mouth, Tailwind Nutrition themselves:

Tailwind Rebuild is the first sport recovery drink based on a patent-pending perfectly complete protein. We start with organic rice protein, and supplement it with amino acids to make that protein complete. Then we add carbohydrates, some healthy fats from coconut milk, and just the right amount of electrolytes. Nothing repairs your muscles more efficiently, restores your energy faster, and makes you feel better sooner. And athletes love the great tasting healthy vegan ingredients.

  • Replenish glycogen stores: contains the right kinds and amounts of carbohydrates to restore your energy after a hard workout

  • Rebuild muscles: perfectly complete protein based on a patent-pending mathematical model to rebuild damaged muscle tissue and mitochondrial protein

  • Rehydrate and restore electrolytes: sodium, potassium, calcium, and magnesium to restore electrolyte balance


Mix a packet of Tailwind Rebuild with 16oz (500mL) of water (shaken not stirred). Drink within the first 30 minutes after exercise. For longer or more intense workouts, follow with another packet of Tailwind Rebuild in the following 30 minutes.


Vanilla: Non-GMO Dextrose, Non-GMO Sucrose, Coconut Milk Powder, Essential Amino Acids (L-Leucine, LLysine, L-Valine, L-lsoleucine, L-Phenylalanine, L-Threonine, L-Methionine, L-Histidine, L-Tryptophan), Non-GMO Organic Rice Protein Powder, Sea Salt, Potassium Chloride, Organic Vanilla Flavor, Calcium Carbonate, Magnesium Citrate

Chocolate: Non-GMO Dextrose, Non-GMO Sucrose, Coconut Milk Powder, Essential Amino Acids (L-Leucine, LLysine, L-Valine, L-lsoleucine, L-Phenylalanine, L-Threonine, L-Methionine, L-Histidine, L-Tryptophan), Non-GMO Organic Rice Protein Powder, Cocoa Powder, Sea Salt, Potassium Chloride, Calcium Carbonate, Magnesium Citrate

Non-GMO/Gluten free/vegan/no soy/no dairy


Though I use both flavors almost equally, I do give a slight benefit to chocolate.  Usually after super hard rides and most races, my body has no desire to have anything in its stomach, but Rebuild goes down easy, stays down, and doesn’t cause any post exercise tummy trouble.  I’ve incorporated Rebuild into my habits for most rides above the easy spin/recovery threshold, and after races.  Compared to my history of not using anything after the bike, the next day after Rebuild my legs don’t feel as dead and I can do more back to back to back hard races/rides with less fatigue.

During this fall’s cyclocross season I’ve definitely come to love Rebuild as some race days I double up and do two separate races (sometimes with only an hour in between).  Getting my muscles a bit freshened up after 45 minutes of mashing them to death is very important when I have to have another round of it in an hour or so.

Rebuild comes in single serving stick packs, which are very handy when traveling and race days (I just have to remember to bring the Blender Bottle… but I have mixed it into a Hydroflask before.  Just make sure to not let said Hydroflask go unwashed in a car for a bit…).  There are also 15 serving bulk bags, which I use at home.

So it’s true… Tailwind is really all you need, all day… really… for both during and after activities!


Disclaimer – I am a sponsored Tailwind Trailblazer athlete.  However, I don’t endorse products I don’t use/personally dislike, regardless of what my sponsors expect.  So what you are getting is my true opinion!